It funny how I only come to this blog when I’m upset! I have everything I want yet I’m still alone! I have a boyfriend but he is always busy lately and I am starting to feel like a used condom, I have friends but I feel like I come second to all of them as in they have friends that take priority over me. I offered to be dd for the club and now I am in the corner sitting while they are on the dance floor. Sure I try to dance with them but then boys push them out of the way and I am left stupidly dancing by myself. I don’t blame my friends, the guys that go after them are cute so… I just hate being by myself, but I’d rather be alone then to be stuck at the club sitting alone!
Being well liked by many is not the same thing as having friends. I don’t have anyone in Florida who I can really hang out with. I hate being alone:( why am I so shy to new people?
So I decided to come to a club by myself in hopes that I might make some new friends, but I don’t know how likely that is to happen. But right now I feel like a sociologist observing everyone. Damn school making its way through to real life. I’m seeing so many sociologic implications!
Hmm… They must have taken a picture of me every time I start to get close to someone because I always fall fast and hard. They unfortunately left out the part of the scene when my heart shatters into a million pieces and I am left to pick them up with bare and bloody hands…